I have to be honest when I say that 2014 was probably one of the worst years of my life. Since the beginning we struggled with my husband losing his job and having a hard time finding a new one. This entire year we've majorly struggled financially. We got hit with some of the most shocking and horrible news when my mother got diagnosed with cancer. I was involved in a car accident that still to this day makes me anxious to drive.
We were blindsided by the news of our unplanned pregnancy, and I would be lying if I said I wasn't bummed that we were expecting when I found out. (I don't mean that to sound horrible, there were things I wanted to accomplish before bringing a little one into our lives, and we weren't ready. Hell, we aren't ready still. As the days get closer to seeing his face though, I am so happy and excited to bring him into this world. And we've learned along the way, you can never be ready to be a parent.) I have had a fairly average pregnancy, but I have been miserable going through it. I thought I would enjoy being pregnant, but I haven't at all, and I can't wait for it to be over with.
I'm one of those people that hates to hear, "new year, new me!" Just because it's a new year doesn't mean once the clock strikes twelve, you are a different person. You have to work towards being that person you want to be. In my case though, I will be a new me soon. I will be a mother, and it will completely change me in ways that no other thing can. Someone will depend on me for everything, and if that doesn't make you a new person, I don't know what does.
I sincerely have higher hopes for 2015. I can't wait to experience bringing a life into the world. I'm scared, nervous, and excited all in one for this new adventure. With that being said, I have a few things I want to work on to better myself this year. Here are my 2015 resolutions:
one// be the best mother I can be. I look up to my mom in so many ways, and hope to be half the mother she was to me and my sister. I want my son to be happy and healthy. I want nothing but the best for him. He is already so loved and I can't wait to shower him with "i love you's" and kisses everyday for as long as he'll let me.
two// stress less. I worry too much about the little things. So what if the dishes pile up in the sink or the carpet needs vacuumed? I shouldn't let those things get to me as much as they do.
three// be a better wife. I need to work on supporting my husband and helping him become the person he wants to be. I also need to be more patient with him.
four// make baby step goals towards bettering my health. This will be something I work on throughout the year. Each month I want to give myself something to focus on that will make me healthier. Baby steps are key.
five// take this blog of mine more seriously. That means working harder on posts, rather than throwing them together. Planning and executing better posts for not only my readers but for myself to look back on and be proud of.
Those are my New Year Resolutions. What are yours? Have a wonderful, safe, and happy new year's eve everyone! Make 2015 one for the books.
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