THE CHILD I WILL NEVER MEET

When I found out I was pregnant I couldn't have been more happy. I was so excited, I cried happy tears and couldn't wait to tell Tom and our families. We prayed for this child. This child was perfect timing. The age gap was ideal, the time of year for me being pregnant was perfect. It seemed like everything was going exactly as planned.

I was sick for the first couple weeks after finding out. But, I couldn't help but feel like I wasn't pregnant after that. After my first appointment at 8 weeks, I wasn't sick anymore. I didn't crave anything anymore. I didn't feel pregnant. I was scared from the very beginning. I had recently known people who had lost their pregnancies, and I was so terrified of that happening to me. But, I tried to keep positive and just told myself that I was lucky!

FIVE ON FRIDAY

(one) So, hi. Here I am, back at it! One of my resolutions this year is to keep up on ye old blog. I'm doing a little redecorating around here, so enjoy the new theme! Minimalist and clean. #goalsamiright It might be changing slightly as I play around with color schemes and whatnot, but there's literally nothing more motivating than a new theme to start blogging again! Shameless plug, but Follow my blog with Bloglovin to stay up to date with new posts.

(two) Call me crazy, but I'm missing snow. We had so much snow here last year and it's snowed maybe twice this winter so far! According to the weather app we are in for some snow and possible freezing rain... I could do without the latter. But, how sweet is my red-nosed cutie in the snow!? We took some family pictures up in the mountains last month and I'm in love with this one I took of Hunter. He's my favorite little model. (Excuse the lack of quality here, I'm too lazy to grab it off my external hard drive, so I pulled it off my Facebook)