This will be my second post in one day. Sue me.
I've made a big decision tonight to face my biggest demon. My weight. I have been looking back at pictures and thinking to myself, "I've never been as big as I am now." Which makes me think I'm not only bigger, but uglier. My self-esteem has hit an all time low. And, that's nothing but my own fault. I've accepted that, and I think that's always been a hurdle. I blamed genetics, and stress, my overloaded schedule, and my asthma. Which frankly, are all good excuses. But, when it comes to being healthy no excuse is good enough.
I've needed a push. At first it was my wedding. That day is gone and over with. And, I can't help but feel bittersweet looking at the pictures. That was supposed to be my day to shine, my day to be the most beautiful one there. And, I blew it because I couldn't stick to the routine I had set for myself at the beginning of the year. I am done with crying over it, because it's something I can't change. I can't change my past, but I can change my future. So, I'll be kissing the Halloween candy goodbye and saying hello to a whole new lifestyle.
My motivations are pretty big ones for me. Tom and I chose to save our honeymoon for the summer so that we could go to the beach. Our plan is to go to the Oregon Coast. Nothing too extravagant, but it's going to be
fun. I would love to be fit and feel good on my honeymoon, to make up for the lack of good I felt looking at my wedding photos.
So number one, look great for my honeymoon, and while we're there possibly hire a photographer and get pictures taken on the beach!
Number two, I want to be able to do fun things. I want to be able to go on hikes with our dogs, nature walks, and mountain bike. I want to be outdoors. I want to be able to hike up a mountain and challenge myself with it, but not kill myself. (Cause it would definitely kill me at the place I'm at now.) I want to enjoy my marriage before the mini-us(es) come along.
Which leads to number three. Tom and I have made a very important decision to wait to have kids until we are financially stable
and healthy. I want to set our children up with the best genes possible. And, it's been discovered that good/bad genes will be passed down to your children just based on the choices you make in your life. I want to have a healthy pregnancy. And, Tom and I want to raise our children in a healthy and active home. That to me is a huge motivation. The longer we have good health, the better chances our children have. I want to create a chain reaction.
This blog is probably going to be absolutely filled with all my upcoming challenges, and definitely a lot of whining I'm sure. But, hopefully right around the corner from all those cringe-worthy posts, will be ones where I see a difference and can offer help and support to those who are in my same shoes.
CHEERS TO CHANGING MY LIFE! -clink-
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