If there is one thing I've always struggled with, it would be my weight. I've always been the girl that wasn't skinny. Since I was young I have had a poor self esteem. And for whatever reason, I never found it in myself to change that girl I always hated. Instead, I would do what I knew comforted me. Eating. I know I'm not the only one who's story is like this. To be honest, I'm not even sure where it all went wrong, and when I started gaining weight. There were times in high school that I felt so low and ugly that I really felt like there was no reason to go on. I'm here though, and now, I'm at the biggest weight I think I've ever been. I look back to high school pictures and think to myself, "I really wasn't all that big." Of course, I was overweight, but not as overweight as I thought I was. I've noticed my clothes from high school don't fit anymore, and it's made my self esteem hit an all time low. All pictures of myself that I see and think, "Wow, I'm so fat." don't exist much anymore since I've erased them from existence because I refuse to see them again. Besides my wedding, because I can't delete memories of a beautiful day, even though I didn't feel beautiful. (I cried for days when I first got my pictures back. It was horrible.)
I have no one to blame but myself. I even got a gym membership from my mom for Christmas last year. I can count on one hand how many times I've been. It is truly pathetic and shameful. There have been so many times I proclaimed, "That's it! Starting now I'll be healthier." It would last maybe a week, and I'd be back to burying my face in a bag of chips. And honestly, lately I have felt not only ashamed of myself, I have felt disgusted. To the point where I don't even like to go out in public anymore.
I have taken charge of my life. It's costing me more money than I want it too, but this investment will give me hope. I'm the kind of person where if I don't see results soon, I give up. I've heard wonderful things about Plexus Slim, and my cousin is a living result of it. I've done my research on it, and I'm excited to start. Tomorrow is the day I begin this new health journey of mine, since I got it in the mail today. I will do an entire post on what it is and how it helps later on when I start to see the results myself. This is going to be a work in progress. I have come to a point where I just want to
feel healthier and better. And, if I happen to shed pounds and
look better, then I'll be happy about that too.
Here's to Destination Healthy Hampton, and arriving at a happier life.
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